Can't sleep

Even though I ran my ass off today at work, I can't sleep. It was so busy today and my body is exhausted. But, when I lay down to sleep, it just didn't happen. Then my friend Sarah came over for about an hour, and now I'm still wide awake!!! What is wrong with me? I didnt go to sleep till 7:30 yesterday morning and got up at one. I should be tired!!! My body clock sucks balls.

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Ah vacation. As is typical with every vacation, I make plans to do so much, but as soon as I have a taste of sitting on my ass and doing nothing, that's what I do for the majority of it. I have been cleaning a little bit, in the anticipation that someday someone other than myself is going to see my apartment and be shocked for life. The problem is that I really can make a lot of mess, relatively fast, and I have no idea how! I really wish it would get warm out again so that I could open up the windows and get some fresh air in here. It's the middle of April, and yet the snow continues on. I'm really not happy with that, especially since my birthday is coming up on Friday, and I would like it to be nice. It is, after all, April. You would think that the snow would about done by now. It's not snowing now, but when I got up this morning there were gigantic snowflakes coming down! It's bullshit.

As this is the millionth breakup that I have endured, I really wish that this time I could get used to the living by myself situation. Unfortunately, it's boring as hell to come home and sit by myself. Since the breakup, I really haven't stayed at home much. I've either been going out, or hanging out at someone else's apartment, like my friend Sarah. I think tonight I should go shopping for some decorations for my apartment. The walls are pitifully boring. I also need to get some curtains. I feel like white trash with blankets over my windows, but that certainly wasn't my doing. My bedroom isn't in the room it is supposed to be in, it's reversed with the living room, so there had to be some switching of the drapes and now I have no curtains at all in my living room. Its lovely. I'm sure my neighbors enjoy me running around my apartment in my pajamas all the time. SOunds like it might be a guy's fantasy, but when your not exactly svelte, I imagine it to be a nightmare.

Money

I wish everyone had unlimited money. Yes, that's what everyone wishes for, but honestly, at this point, I would love to get a trainer. Ya know, someone to whip me into shape so that I couldn't make stupid excuses to not work out. Well, we all know that isn't going to happen, especially in light of my new and unimprove money situation, but a girl can dream can't she? I guess another thing that I could hope for is some rich distant relative who wants to give me a lot of money. Also not going to happen, but come on! It seems like all the wrong people get money. Or, they win the lottery and they're 100 years old, and then they die. Yeah. Super. Life sucks. Anyone giving out money?

hrm...

I'm tired. And bored. Life is pretty boring in general. I really don't do anything, and yet I find crap to write about on here. Does anyone read it? I don't think so. But, sometimes, it's nice to get your thoughts down on "paper." Of course, it's not real paper (obviously) but who knows? I really need to start working out. There is nothing that is holding me back from working out, especially this week and next week, but Im pretty sure I won't go. I want to enjoy my week off from school and I'll probably go out every day. Right now, I have plans to go out with my friends...oh, the next3 days. Great. I need to rein that in, because now that I pay all the bills, I can't be spending a ton of money. Ech.

The Villagers

I am addicted to Yahoo! Games. It's horrible. I go on the site to see what new games are on there, and I love all the games, so I buy them. Then, I have no money. It sucks! Damn that Yahoo! I was debating getting rid of my cable now that I am living on my own, but I don't know if I could deal with no VH1. I love VH1. They get all the shows after they've been on, like America's Next Top Model and The Search for the Next Coyote Ugly. It's great!

Food Network

I heart the food network. It's my inner housewife talking. Even though I can't cook worth a damn, and I'm generally lazy, I love to watch these people cook! It's so much fun!

cleaning part 2

I've finally realized why I live in such squalor. I am addicted to my computer!!! I could have gotten a lot done today, and yet here I sit on my laptop, glued to the TV watching I love New York. I don't know why I sit here for hours on end. There is really nothing for me to do on the internet besides checking my e-mail, myspace, facebook, and blogging, and that is pretty much it. It doesn't really matter since I'm on break from school, but I want to get the cleaning over and done with so I can enjoy my vacation. And, on Thursday, my mom is having surgery on her foot, so I have to be up there all day so I won't be able to clean at all. Eh, I have a lot of time still.