cleaning

I have to clean the squalor of my apartment. And I am not happy. I would like to be just sitting on my ass, watching the I love New York marathon. But no. My apartment is so disgusting, so I really need to do something about it. Janelle might come over to watch the finale of the show, and I don't really want anyone to see how gross it is here. It's kind of embarassing actually. Soon enough though, I should be done with all of that.

Stuff...

Now that I am single, I certainly am going to have a lot of time to do...well, nothing. I am on break from school for about a week and a half, starting on Wednesday. Of course, I have to clean the mess that Gib left in the apartment for me, so that is certainly something to do. I am really just very annoyed with the whole situation right now. It's actually lonely at the apartment without him, but I guess I just need to get used to that. I can't stay in a relationship where I am not happy and eventually, he wouldn't be happy either. I am kinda pissed that he managed to break my fucking keyboard on my laptop. He was going to get it fixed, and now, of course, he will not. So, that sucks. Oh well. Shit happens, I guess. I'm just not in a good place right now. How fucking cliche is that? I need to clean this disgusting apartment. I'm sure I'll be back to rant more later

Rah

OK...so, I recently broke up with my boyfriend. And, I feel like an asshole. It's sucks. I had the most random night out tonight with my friends, but it was fun. I'm not quite sure what to do at this pont. I've almost come to the conclusion that I just need to be single, like that's just what I need to do. What is fucking wrong with me???

Drunk

Hm...well, since I have to get up at 10 a.m. tomorrow, I don't know WHY I am up now. Unfortunately, I went out tonight even though I have to get up tomorrow and go to class, as well as do my stupid internship at the school. Great idea. The good thing is I have off soon for my spring break from JCC so that will be a welcome break from everything. I did have fun tonight, only problem is getting up tomorrow! Gr...Does anyone even read this thing, or am I writing it for myself?

Gained

Well, I gained today at WW. It's garbage. And I know what the problem is. I don't exercise or watch my portion sizes! I want to lose at least 40 pounds for the wedding I have to go to this summer!!! I had to go to three weddings last summer and the pictures of me were not so flattering as a fat girl. That needs to stop. I only gained 0.2 pounds, obviously not a big deal, but I don't like setbacks this early in the game!! Tomorrow, I'm taking it up a notch!

Nervous

Ah...I have to start my 20 hour "internship" at school four today. And I am nervous. At least I don't have to go far. Kids scare me. I have no idea why I decided to do one at an elementary school first!!! Gr...

work....

I hate working. It's so nice to be back in school and only have to work 2 days a week for awhile. Of course, I know it can't last, but it's so nice for now...Until today rolls around and I DO have to go to work. The hardest thing about being on a diet is working in a restaurant and seeing all the food, all day long. Gr...